Hey there, so as I said in my previous post, we moved!! And I must tell you that it is great here in the new house! We actually have a “normal” flatmate, isn’t a fucking vegan/physco/tranny/prostitute/druggy xD Which is fantastic! He literally is just a normal person, the only weird thing is, is that he has the same name as our previous physco flatmate, lulz.
Anyway, moving on with other things, I didn’t get the job at the breakfast cafe that I was hoping for so I am a little disappointed about that….I may or may not have an interview at another place but meh…I dunno. They haven’t gotten back to me yet…so I guess I just have to wait and see.
Ahhh, I recently got back into yugioh again after not playing it for ages….I started to dislike it after I just kept losing to all of the new cards…which I cannot stand. Go back to the old days, and the old cards is what I say. All of the new cards are just too broken. The type of decks that I use wouldn’t have a chance against the new cards. Oh, also I started playing League of Legends….probably the worst decision of my life, because I know how addictive the game can be…but meh…you only live once right.
I feel really disappointed…I had kinda hoped that I had more to talk about by now…but my life has been pretty uneventful lately…I’m feeling a little bit down right now though…I just feel so insecure about a lot of things…I wish that people were easier to read….I really really wish the people were easier to read, it would make my life so much easier. But…life isn’t easier is it…I thought I should have realised that by now…maybe I did already know that…but I just got all happy and dandy and put on my rose coloured glasses for a while and zoned out all the bad shit…and then suddenly the glasses broke…and then everything came flooding back.
Haha, I try so fucking hard to be tough, and then little fucking things seem to break through my tough defences and I don’t know how to stop them. Fuck it, I’m just babbling about shit now. I’m such an idiot…thinking that I could be happy again…thinking that anyone could want me again…that’s not how life fucking works Gaara….life does not fucking work that way. Life has clearly shown me that it doesn’t want me around…it’s shown me that it isn’t going to give me a fair go…so what now…I can’t give up again…I just can’t. To struggle on….just struggle on…